No these days I tend to lie

I decided to change Rae's character song to Amsterdam by Imagine Dragons, it really fits her~ She's full of regrets and inadequacies (imagined, mostly) and feels like no matter what she does she will always fail in the end- she lost her sister, her wife, and her own life (that was from carelessness) and her love life had been a long string of women using her and cheating on her (until the current time). Despite that, the old Morelli optimism won't seem to leave her alone. As an escape, she turned to drink and eventually became an alcoholic that lead to a bad accident in which she was demoted and became even more ashamed of it

Though she has plenty of things that make her happy now, she still has that disease and when she's feeling particularly helpless she falls right back into it. She's also, for the most part, a quiet, reflective (and depressed) drunk, but sometimes she's an angry fighty drunk if in the right setting.
Obviously this is one of those 'quiet depressed' days

(Just a quick warm up sketch haha)
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I'm sorry, mother I'm sorry, I let you down
Well, these days I'm fine
No these days I tend to lie
I'll take the West train, just by the side of Amsterdam
Just by my left brain, just by the side of the Tin man

I'm sorry, brother I'm sorry, I let cha down
Well, these days you're fine
No these days you tend to lie
You'll take the West train, just by the side of Amsterdam
Just by your left brain, just by the side of the Tin man

Your time will come if you wait for it, if you wait for it
It's hard, believe me I've tried
But I keep coming up short

I'm sorry, lover You're sorry, I bring you down
Well, these days I try and these days I tend to lie
Kinda thought I was a mystery and then I thought I wasn't meant to be
You said yourself fantastically, "Congratulations you were all alone"

Your time will come if you wait for it, if you wait for it
It's hard, believe me I've tried
Your time will come if you wait for it, if you wait for it
It's hard, believe me I've tried

But the rain won't fall for the both of us
The sun won't shine on the both of us
Believe me when I say, that I wouldn't have it any other way

Your time will come if you wait for it, if you wait for it
It's hard, believe me I've tried
But I won't wait much longer 'cause these walls they're crashing down
And I won't wait much longer 'cause these walls they're crashing down
And I keep coming up short